petitedeath:

lesbirdan:

butchscientist:

i genuinely can’t conceptualize regularly wearing makeup not messing with your perception of your natural face like. ok sure if people say that they don’t feel that way i take that at face value but honestly back when i tried to wear makeup semi regularly i would only wear some concealer and maybe mascara but i remember the more i wore it the uglier my natural face felt, the more obvious the bags under my eyes seemed, the more redness i saw around my nose, the uglier my eyelashes looked without makeup.

did anything physically change about my natural face? no! but concealing those things on my face inherently involved viewing them as flaws to be concealed, and the more i did that & saw my face “corrected” & got used to that the more those parts of my natural face felt like something gross and bad.

whenever i hear someone describe makeup as “putting my face on” i flinch – that phrasing implies that Your Physical Face That Is Attached To You isn’t your “real” face and the implications of that perspective are so profoundly unsettling

This can totally be undone though. I did the same thing. At first it was just light mascara and concealer and then eventually it built up until i was in full face every day or else i felt like some ugly old hag. But I started wearing less in the summer. Filling in my brows just a little because they were sparse from years of 90s and early 2000s thin brow fads and maybe a touch of mascara. After a week or two i started to find my natural look pretty. I started finding it enjoyable and feeling good about myself. 
Now I can mix it up without feeling gross. Some days I want a dramatic look and put a lot of makeup on for something interesting and different while days like today I only filled in my brows to make them look like they did before I started tweezing and a tiny bit of mascara. My skin isnt perfect but im ok with it and surprisingly so is everyone else. You can come back from that feeling